OK this is just beginning to suck really bad.

Six months ago I lost a good friend to a drug overdose---circumstances are still sketchy but needless to say he died. His father and my father have been friends for over 35 years. It's still painful.

Now this weekend a terrible accident

To make it worse, I remember when both Miles and Rodney were born.....Miles' dad has been one of my dad's running buddies for years, and oh yea probably should mention the guy who lost his son six months ago works for Miles' dad and actually was Miles' and Rodney's crew boss.....

The world keeps taking people who matter.....why? This is bullshit.......

 

RD, please take this from someone who has lost a close life and someone who has taken life. There is no easy answer to what you are experiencing and what happened. People make their own choices no matter how much others try to encourage them not to make the mistakes. This is the fallacy of the human-being. I lost a brother many years ago and it hurts me to this day. Initially it consumed my life and was all I could think about every single day. Over the years it has become easier but about 3 to 4 times a year me and one of my older sisters call each other and weep for our loss. Then I reflect on the time's I've spent in combat and the lives I've taken and I weep for them also. For their families that thought they would see them again, for the sons and daughters that lost their father, for a wife that lost the love of her life, and for a mother and father who lost a child long before they left this earth. These things should not be so but this is the way the human race has chosen to live despite the warnings that God has given us as to what will happen when we do these things. Like I said...there is no easy explanation and no easy answer and most likely there probably never will be.......BUT, we CAN learn to live again and move on with our lives in honor of those we loved so much. Not a day goes by that I dont grieve and suffer that my children are not with me. One day soon they will be but right now I can only be patient, hope, keep faith, and pray. Not too many days go by that I dont think of my brother and in fact his memory is what helped me through many rough nights in Baghdad. His death at many times helped me to reach deep within myself and draw out something that not even the Navy special warfare community could teach me to do. Right now you dont understand these things and dont receive them. Right now all you want to do is beat the living hell outta someone or something to help make the pain go away, but it doesnt work. I tryed that and found that it just made me a more miserable man than I already was. RIght now as I type this I sit and weep for your pain because I know how it feels and I'm looking at a picture of my brother and REMEMBERING. RD, if there's one thing great that I've learned in my 37 years on this earth........life isnt fair. It will rob from you when you least expect it and will destroy every dream you ever had. It will take whatever life is important to you and grind it on the threshing floor. All we can do is learn to love even more from these things. All we can do is learn to live. It is my hope and prayer that everything I have said has given even the most minute amount of comfort and some encouragement. Right now I'm going to log off and weep over the memory and tragic loss of my brother and remember you and your suffering while I am there.

 

I know how you feel, I've probably lost 8 or 9 people close to me in the last 4 1/2 years since i graduated school, one of them took some pills at a party i was having and overdosed later at home, so i feel responsible for that and i live with that everyday when i think of him, i lost a good racing friend to a heart attack and also lost an aunt that practically raised me and i also lost a cousin to suicide along with alot of other people that made ALOT of bad decisions, living with pain is an everyday thing but sometimes it just dosent seem fair, sometimes its just easier to cry, no point in holding it in cause it just builds up and makes your life worse, i know i dont have the best track record with either of you guys but i know how you feel and if either of ya need to talk just shoot me a PM, life does get better though, it will get better, you wont forget the loses in your life but it does make you want to spend more time with the ones you love, so hug the closest person to ya and tell them ya love them........Logan.


P.S. just remember guys we aint here very long, so love whoever ya can, mend whats broken and hold who needs held, and make the best of what short time we all have left and live your lives to the fullest.........

 

Dan Sorry to here about the loss ,

One thing that always plays true The Driver 51 Lives ......

I think this is gods way ,

When i was 12 One of my close friends was with his 8 year old sister , his dad was drunk wrecked and killed him and his sister and the dad never got a scratch the car was in a million pieces , Now that guy has to live with that forever ,

If the wreck was that bad and the 2 boys died and the 51 year old lived then there was a definite reason for his life being spared rather it be Guilt for what ever reason or the fact that his purpose on life hasnt been fulfilled and this accident will get him back on track for why hes here

Seriously i be leave thats the case Its the only way to truly Relate to Death at gods hands ,

2 Years ago My uncle was heading South bound on I270 , He worked in the trenches "Construction" all his life built up a huge company Drove this road a million times , Was heading home from his shop where he just turned the biz over to his son and annouced his retirement , He had a friend in his truck with him running 80MPH , when heading North bound a woman was on her cell phone and never seen the traffic was stoped , Yank the wheel hit the median and went air born upside down way up in the air , My uncle was driving seen the SUV up in the air , And realized this was it , Said YOU OR ME and whiped the wheel to the RIGHT real hard , the SUV bounced off a Van directly in front of my uncles truck (Killed Both thge people in the van instantly and the woman in the upside down suv) , At this point my uncle was turned far enough for the SUV to Hit him square in the drivers door , all said and done the passenger Never had a scratch My uncle was gone , Just Like that he made a choice

It took me till recently to feel un paranoid on the interstate. I Avoid it as much as possible and use SR40 to travel East and West

 

Sorry to hear this Dan

God works in mysterous ways............we will never understand them

enjoy the time you have here cuz we never know whos next

one thing fer sure ...none of us gettin out alive

 

I had a friend named Brandon that was killed in a local bar. This guy was talkin smack to his wife and Brandon told the guy to leave her alone. The guy left and then 1 hr later he came back to the bar and stabbed Brandon in the neck with a pool stick. Brandon was 29 when he was killed. Life deals us cards and we just have to play them the best we can.

 

life aint always fair

 

Thanks guys.

I know in time it'll get better....been the voice of reason for others in this situation, but having three people within 1/2 a year die who all know each other is a tough pill to swallow.

Just makes me think if I wouldn't work so hard to beat the hand I've been dealt lately and defy the odds that others would still be here....almost like I've screwed up the mojo of the system.....

Pay no mind to my bitching....just in a pisser mood.

 

yer OK Bud........................Life does go on man....and it must

the mojo is fine,

bottom line is when its yer time its yer time..............I firmly believe that yer life plan is already laid out the day you are born.


I know its hard to do sometimes BUT

"Live with passion "

 

I tried but she's a nutcase....