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i know exactly what you are going through. i deal with it every day. i snap at people for no reason what so ever or just get mad at them and later i feel bad about it but i'm so stubborn i dont let it go. i either sleep 4-6 hours a night or 11-13... and will be tired whenever i wake up. soemtimes i'll stay up 2 or 3 days straight and start to hallucinate(sp). i actually just forgot i was typing this and started watching tv. 10-15 minutes later i look back down and remember this. . but yeah i do that all the time. the only difference is that i can sit and watch tv or play video games for hours. but i constantly forget things that i need to do. i dont even carry a wallet anymore. it stays in my truck all the time. money goes from pants pocket to pants pocket. i lose thigns all the time. i locked my keys in my old truck 3 times in one week one time...
but yeah i was diagnosed with A.D.D and i am 19. you can be diagnosed with adult ADD or ADHD. i am taking a psychology class right now just to learn about some of this stuff. ADD is actually from ADHD. ADHD=attention deficit hyperactive disorder, take out the "H" and you have ADD. some people can have both which means they are fidgity(sp) and can't pay attention very well and all those other awesome symptoms. i have a terrible memory. i can't remember much of anything from my childhood, and sometimes have trouble remembering what i did a week ago or even yesterday... right now i'm on some drugs and i forget to take them alot of times. it's alot harder to live with than people think and i feel for ya. i've actually just ended 3 friendships with bad attitude. i mean they had alot to do with it. but i probably could have taken a different approach with what i did/said. i'm not really sure what if anything i can say to help you out. i mean memory wise idk i just remember the most random things and forget important things all the time. getting frustrated or angry. it's just something to work on. and idk if there is any other way besides medication to fix it. maybe leave notes arond the house as reminders... idk. it's definately not a fun problem to have. i'm learning about it as i go and i actually go to a therapist and i'm learning stuff in my class. if you have any questions or just want to vent you can pm me. i know that for me talking to a neutral party or someone random that is willing to listen helps me vent, blow off steam, and get things off my chest. good luck to you though and hopefully things will get better.

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i dont know what the hell i got but im never rested in the morning after 7-8 hour sleep, i cant stay still i have to be moving at all times, and i st very iritated at the smallest things

 

oh and i found out i have insomnia. insomnia is having trouble falling aseep or staying asleep. i can't fall asleep very well. but i can wake up have a conversation with someone and go right back to sleep nd not remember talking to the person.

 

The more you think you're nuts, the more sane you are.
How are your social skills? Do you feel comfortable talking to people in person? Is your tolerence level toward other people declining? Do you prefer to work with other people or alone?

 

i have both and i love it . i can multitask like crazy

 

My social skills are fine but I am a terrible listener. Someone will be talking to me and I'llbe shaking my head in acknowledgment but I am really thinking about the crap I have on my list to do or where I am going to hunt on the weekend.
Depending on the situation. I feel more comfortable not talking in person and if possible I try not to talk on the phone, email is easier for me. Its weird, I can be taking a class or be in a room full of people and can blirt out all of the funny stuff I want and yell out things but if someone turns it around and puts me in the spotlight when its not on my own terms it definitly makes me uncomfortable
Yes my tolerance is declining, especially with my kids and wife.

I mostly prefer to work alone

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i can't remember much of anything from my childhood, and sometimes have trouble remembering what i did a week ago or even yesterday

yup thats me

i can sit and watch tv or play video games for hours
Totally, I almost feel rested after watching an hour or so of uninterupted tv

 

well I went to my regular doctor today for a referral.

she suggested I try and see this guy. he is supposedly the ADD/ADHD Guru and he is 30 miles from me!

theADHDdoc.com - Your guide to medications and complementary and alternative treatments for ADD & ADHD.

his site s cool and has lots of good info. So I called to see if my insurance would cover it and they dont do Blue cross directly but I'd have to pay upfront and my insurance would pay me back.
So I called my insurer to see how it worked. This doctor isnt in my insurers network so I would have to pay a $250 deductible then they would cover 70% of the rest.
Definitely cant afford that. frigin sucks as many of the shrinks dont specialize in ADD/ADHD and I would run into the same BS as before vsit= new med, visit=different med ect
without having the proper tools to diagnose.
this guy has machine that he hooks up to your head that reads brain activity and can diagnose it on the first visit.
this sucks
So I called my doctor again a gave her the bad news. She is going to make some phone calls and get back with me but spoke to a rep at that guys office and she gave him my 30 question ADD/ADHD test and my history and he said that most of his patients answer 15-18 questions positive that would suggest ADD/ADHD. I answered 28 positive.he said very few answer that many positive. But he said that one drug would would give immediate results and would sort of cut to the chase and diagnose it. A low dosage of concerta would show an immediate improvement, if it did than I should see someone to get properly diagnosed.
under my best judgment I decided to give it a shot. all I can say is HOLY COW!
it was like I drank 5 energy drinks. I took it at 2 and by 3 I was alert and focused. when I got home the kids were a terror and that would have put me in my annoyed, depressed, ******* mood. But I didnt snap at them I handled the situations and the kids listened and reacted better by me not being an *******. My impulse to get mad wasnt there and I actually had a few good conversations with my wife and kids instead of just being there and kind of keeping to my self
The only side effects are 1. It makes you feel a little weird (wired). 2. I am up right now

hopefully this is the answer. I still want to see that guy or someone else with add/adhd experience as counseling and meds should be done together.

 

Doc hasnt spoke up about his CM ?

 

huh?